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Sunday, March 12, 2006

 My best friend died today.  Kimberly Katherine Batey White passed quietly at Ocshner Hospital at 1:31 am this morning.  I was holding one hand and her sister was holding the other.  Kim lived 34 and half years with Cystic Fibrosis.  Her parents were told when she was 6 weeks old that she would not live beyond childhood.  But she did.  Then she wasn't supposed to make it beyond her teen years, but she did.  Then the magic number was 29...but she surpassed that too.  To her parent's and sister's credit, they simply never allowed Kim to think of herself as disabled in any way.  And to Kim's credit, she never acted that way.  When a lesser person could have taken advantage of the situation- of the frequent illnesses and hospitilazations as a teenager- Kim just worked that much harder.  She graduated near the top of her class- often doing her homework from a hospital bed.

When we were dating, she tried to give me an "out".  Basically, she told me that her lifespan would probably be limited and I could call it quits then if I wanted to.  Of course, I didn't call it quits.  I told her first of all that none of us are guaranteed a tomorrow.  Even today is a gift we don't deserve.  And I told her that I would rather live some of my life with her than live any of it without her.  We were married May 31, 1997.  Just over a year later she recieve an incredible gift of life from a young teenager in Baton Rouge- a double lung transplant.  Without it, Kim would only have lived another year or two.  With the new lungs she enjoyed 8 and a half years of quality life.  She was a full-time Registered Nurse.  She put up with me.  She even let me buy a new Jeep a few months ago!  She went snow skiing in New Mexico and snorkeling in the Caribbean.   She hiked to the bottom and back of the 2nd deepest canyon in the Eastern US with me.  I took her to the Ballet one time...because I'm classy like that!  And to her favorite Bed & Breakfast in Natchez a couple of times. 

She loved cats and at times took on a variety of cat-like characteristics- like clawing and hissing at me!  She had a dry sense of humor and was especially pleased with herself whenever she said something witty- which was pretty often.  And after nearly 9 years of marriage, we never ate off our China!  Dang!

I'm a better person because of her.  I think I always will be.  I think most people that knew her were blessed by her.  We prayed together a few weeks ago that whatever happened that our lives would glorify God.  I'm satisfied that her life did just that.

Lyrics from Wayne Watson- Home Free

I'm trying hard not to think you unkind
But Heavenly Father
If you know my heart
Surely you can read my mind
Good people underneath the sea of grief
Some get up and walk away
Some will find ultimate relief

Chorus
Home Free, eventually
At the ultimate healing we will be Home Free
Home Free, oh I've got a feeling
At the ultimate healing
We will be Home Free

Out in the corridors we pray for life
A mother for her baby, A husband for his wife
Sometimes the good die young
It's sad but true
And while we pray for one more heartbeat
The real comfort is with you

You know pain has little mercy
And suffering's no respecter of age, of race or position
I know every prayer gets answered
But the hardest one to pray is slow to come
Oh Lord, not mine, but Your will be done

Let it be...

Chorus
Home Free, eventually
At the ultimate healing we will be Home Free
Home Free, oh I've got a feeling
At the ultimate healing
We will be Home Free
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Clinton, you are amazing.  Your words are good.  Thank you.
Posted 3/12/2006 4:20 PM by williamsworld77 - recommend - reply

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My heart goes out to you and to everyone who loved Kim. Though i only met her a few times, she was so lovely, and i can only imagine what you are going through right now. I'll be praying.....

mary <3

Posted 3/12/2006 4:53 PM by ChEeZy_GoRdItA - recommend - reply

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clinton i am so sorry... i love you and i know that kim is in a much better (pain free) place!

Posted 3/12/2006 5:09 PM by OkAyImAdItZ - recommend - reply

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I am so sorry about what you're going through. She was a blessing. I'll be praying for you. Love you.
Posted 3/12/2006 5:30 PM by its_marissa - recommend - reply

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i am so sorry about you're going through clinton...we all love you..kim was a blessing to all of us even though i only met her a few short times she was amazing..im praying for you..i love you ~Courtney~
Posted 3/12/2006 6:03 PM by DiXiE_cHiCkS_aRe_ThE_hIcKs - recommend - reply

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clinton...i am so sorry. i only met kim once or twice but i know that she was a terrific person...we will keep you in our prayers. love always. Caitlyn
Posted 3/12/2006 7:36 PM by eMiLyCaItLyN22 - recommend - reply

Clinton, i love you and kim so much! ya'll have done so much for me and my family, she made us meals(which we're quite delicious)watched us while my parents were away, and made us laugh with her wonderful sense of humor. we will all miss her very much!
today when i found out, it was right be4 church started, and i was sad and i had to get up and play, but then i though..man, kim is really getting a worship service today, in PARADISE with the most awesome GOD ,EVER! if u need ANYTHING jus let any of us mossers know, cause we are always here 4 u! we're praying 4 u and you andkims family! love ya so much ~heather
Posted 3/12/2006 7:42 PM by Anonymous - recommend - reply

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Absolutely beautiful! She was so amazing. I'll never forget her sweet little voice "Well hello Miss Amy" as she smiled and shrugged her little sholders and hugged me. And that cooking she would do for us at midnight breakfasts and Bible studies--Mmm! I'm thankful I was able to know her. Her sweet, uplifting spirit despite her circumstances was always an encouragement to me.

I'll tell you something else: She was so blessed to have a guy like you, Clinton White. If I were to name the top three people that have influenced my life, you're up there with my parents. I would not be where I am today, spiritually without your guidance, instruction, and example. It hurts me to think about you hurting. If it's any consolation, know I will be praying for you constantly (and I'm not just saying that--I honestly will be). I love you and repect you more than you can ever know.

Posted 3/12/2006 8:10 PM by Ams312 - recommend - reply

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I remember a few years back when I was either first going either into the student ministry or when I was there. I dont know if you remember this but I think It was a weekend and we met Mark and them. and I got to room with Kim. She was amazing. She was always really nice to me. I dont know how to explain but she was!! She always talked to me. I will be praying for you!!

Posted 3/12/2006 8:25 PM by DaWgTyRdRuS - recommend - reply

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clinton you are an amazing person and an inspiration to us all. you stand strong in this time of mourning. i can not even imagine what it would be like to lose a spouse and espically one as wonderful as yours was.Mrs.Kim was truely a blessing to us all and she was a wonderful and cheerful person who never once did i hear her complain about her problems and all she cared about was everyone elses. my prayers are with you and her family. even though this is a time of greif you also have to be so so so joyful that she is in a totally better place and she will not have to suffer any longer in this place of complication and distress. you have to just count each day as a blessing from god and live life to the fullest. you will one day be able to share the blessing of heaven with her and you will again be able to hold her in your arms. i know that she is definately with you in every step that you take and that she will always be in your heart. she is now a part of you and she will always be even if she is not here in person. i feel so blessed to have even known such a wonderful person as she was. she was completely a blessing not only to me but to the entire church family and everyone who knew her. i may not have known her for more than a year but in the year that i did know her i knew that she was most definately an angel sent from god and she was a blessing from god to us all. my family's and my prayers are with you and her family. i love you and hope that you will stand strong and be able to realize that even though this was a tragic thing it was also a magnificent blessing for her.

                                                                                                    ~with love your sister in christ~

                                                                                                                          Mandy Brown

Posted 3/12/2006 10:50 PM by supergirl9239 - recommend - reply

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clinton... i am soo sorry... even though i only met her a few times i was touched by how sweet she was... i am praying for you always

<3 Hannah
Posted 3/12/2006 11:46 PM by flUfFyhaShbRoWns - recommend - reply

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Clinton, I love you. You and Kim had such a sweet relationship. How wonderful! Your ministry has touched so many lives. Kim has been a main reason for that. Now, you will continue to be the wonderful person you are with Kim still supporting you all the way. You are a blessing to my life, Clinton. Let me know if there is anything I can do. I love you very much. You are in my prayers daily.
Posted 3/12/2006 11:48 PM by Misspriss321 - recommend - reply

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Clinton, From the first day i met you. I wasnt anything like am i today. I can honestly say from the first day i met you, you encouraged me to just come to six of five, just come you will enjoy yourself. Clinton, ever since that day i can say you have been a big influence on me. When i saw you an Kim together, i could tell how happy you were. How much of a blessing she was to your life. From the day i met her, i never knew such an illness she had. She was full of joy and happiness. It is such a sad thing, at this moment i am sharing my emotions and tears all over this keyboard. Out of all the people in the world Clinton, you should not have to go through the pain and suffering you are going through right now. We all know she is in a place that is far greater than this earth. I can't begin to tell you how much you mean to me in my life. I love you Clinton. I will be praying for you.

-justin

Posted 3/13/2006 12:10 AM by JiGgAman_41890 - recommend - reply

Clinton, I am so sorry for your loss. Kim was a beautiful, amazing lady who truly had the light of God in her. I love you both. Nicole
Posted 3/13/2006 8:32 AM by Anonymous - recommend - reply

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Clinton, I just had to write and tell you that I am so sorry. I can not imagine your grief. I wish I could say more to you but I am praying that Jesus will be your strength, comfort, peace, fortress, and rock.

  In Christ

     Perry Pugh 

Posted 3/13/2006 12:30 PM by my3sons1999 - recommend - reply

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Clinton, i can't tell you how strong of a person you are. After all you've been through, you still think of a way to make others feel better. I only met Kim a few times but thought she was sooo nice and caring.  I'll always remember that time on the Buck Trip when she wrapped my finger up in tape and cardboard after i broke it in the pool...i dont know why but thats what pops in my head when i think of her lol. I can't imagine what your going through right now, but we all know she's in a better place. I'll keep praying for you and you just hang in there...things will get better soon.

Love You,

      Shannon

Posted 3/13/2006 1:15 PM by RoCkIn_ReBeL91 - recommend - reply

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Even though I didn't get the chance to met her, Clinton, I understand what you are going through. Be strong because God is with you. I know there is nothing I can say that will make you feel any better about this, but just know that I love you and there are so many others out there that love you to! She is in peace now along with my father and two grandmothers. I know the lost feeling and when I reflect on that I become speechless, I just can't imagine how you feel. I am praying for you, Kim's family, and I will keep you in my heart. I love you, Clinton.

Elizabeth
Posted 3/13/2006 5:44 PM by altMusik95 - recommend - reply

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Clinton, I couldn't have chosen a better dauther-in-law. The love she showed for my son only made her dearer to us. I was very proud to be her mother-in-law. I always enjoyed making sausage balls and fudge for her because she loved them. Clinton, I love you, and I know God's going to help you get through this, and we'll be there for you if you need us. I love you, Son. Mom
Posted 3/13/2006 10:23 PM by cwhitedogsmom - recommend - reply

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Little Brother, I can't thank you enough for bringing Kim into our lives. She's been as much a child of this family as if she'd been born into it... and in a way she was... born to us through God's love and matchmaking. Not a one of us could have loved her more if she'd been part of us since the day she was born. Hers was one of the most loving, giving, kind spirits I've ever been privileged to know, and her sweet, frail but strong shoulders were there for me through every storm I've weathered in the years I've known her. She was my hero, an inspiration and encouragement to me. And so are you, Clinton. Marriage is supposed to be a picture of the relationship between Christ and the church... a witness without words to a lost and dying world of what the relationship with God can be... and yours and Kim's marriage was exactly that. It was and is the ideal of what God wants from us. I'm so proud to have known you, let alone been related to the two of you. God could have saved us, and stopped right there, and it would have been more than we deserve... but for icing on the cake, He let us share in yours and Kim's lives... and tho our hearts are broken not to have her here with us now... they exalt in the joy of knowing we'll be with her again in heaven... and in the joy of still sharing in your life. She'll be in our hearts and thoughts always... and so will you... in our hearts, thoughts and prayers. And i believe with all my heart, that a part of her will be with us and especially with you through all the days ahead. I love you, little brother, and I know I speak for all your family. God bless you, love, vickie
Posted 3/13/2006 10:39 PM by cwhitedogsmom - recommend - reply

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MY CLINTON!
I have never seen anyone or heard of anyone that has faith and trust in the Lord like you and Kim did. Every obstacle that was thrown y'all's way was approached with prayer for grace. I admire that in people! We will never forget Kim but we all know that we will see her again. That is one thing that we will NOT have to worry about! The Gilreaths are praying for you and your family and you are on our hearts!
I love you ssssooooooooooooo much, Clinton!
Victoria
Posted 3/13/2006 11:01 PM by versatile_victoria - recommend - reply

Clinton I know this seems to be a repeated process, but it is a comfort to know what kind of influence you actually have. I know, personally, that if you hadn't been the strongest influence in my life I don't know where I would be. You have helped me grow spiritually as well as mentally and emotionally. Though you never knew this, I kind of treat you like a father away from home. You have always been there for me. Know that a part of me will always be with you and I will always be praying for you. I know that Kim is in heaven praising our wonderful Savior and dancing around with no pain, no worries. I love you and thank you for all that you have done for me.

Love,
Matt
Posted 3/14/2006 2:27 AM by Anonymous - recommend - reply

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Uncle Clinton, I won't post all my thoughts here- but I did write about Kim on my blog. When you are ready to read them, please do. http://thesift.atlblogs.com/archives/010387.html

I love you much.

-S
Posted 3/14/2006 10:40 AM by apog - recommend - reply

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Clinton, I love you, and I am so sorry about what you are going through. Though I have only had the privilege of meeting Kim a few times, she was amazing. I'll be praying for you.

-Lauren

Posted 3/14/2006 10:52 AM by LrNBrOwNy - recommend - reply

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CLINTON!! I love you sooo much! You and Kim were such a blessing in my life. I know she is in heaven right now in no pain, praising God. That gives me joy and peace, I've been praying that it gives you some peace too. Kim was one of the most amazing people I knew, and with you she was unstoppable. You two made a great team. You are such a great person Clinton, and I love you so much. If there is anything I can do to help, like come over and clean or make dinner, I will be glad, blessed, and honored too. Don't forget all the good times you've had with her and remember where she is now, in paradise. Our lives are like a breath of air to God. Kim's was sweet and yours is too. But now she is eternally with God. That is amazing, and she deserved something amazing. I love you Clinton and I mean what I said about coming over. :) God Bless and I'm praying for you everyday.
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hey paw paw.

Clinton i love you. Kim was my second mother and she was such a blessing and influence in my life. She had this sweet "air" about her that made everyone around her feel so good. I have loved knowing her all my life. She was so beautiful. I can't wait to hug her so tight when we see her again. Daily you are in my heart and prayers and I love you so much.
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